too much to many things happened.. i really ACCEPTED...

i tired with everything.. i'm seriously speechless for wad i had done.. still.. i feel bad.. i feel guilty.. all towards *you.. i noe i've to bear these consequences..

UNFAIR.. cos i bear those consequences alone.. though i noe u were dissapointed towards her also.. but i have my reasons to say UNFAIR to *you.. u see i'm just nobody to u now.. transparent.. not in ur life anymore.. whereas someone still living in ur world.. someone could let u stay.. i CAN'T.. just because she don wan to lose u.. but not me.. someone u still cares and bother.. though in different positions.. though different weightage stands in ur heart.. i cannot be compare at all.. no matter how much time is going to past, things will not be e same.. laughter,joy,trust,bounds between us had GONE.. probably forever.. for now it just gone.. i cant do anything.. even though i faced my mistakes.. i was wrong.. apologies don helped anything.. cos wad is done cannot be undone.. probably u are laughing at me now.. but still.. i'm sincerely sorry..

worked at a law firm since starting of february... exactly 1 month stopped.. thought i could give my best shot in a new environment.. trying to do my best.. but it just gone just because i'm SLOW and some BIATCH stabbed me.. everybody doing the same thing but i'm e one who kena.. i learnt not to blame anyone but myself.. told myself its ok.. jiayou on the next job.. trying to think positive.. really trying..

had a VERY big quarrelled with my parents recently.. everything was brought out eventually.. had a harshed decison.. wanted to moved out at tt point of time.. almost got hit by dad.. he flared up.. mum flared up.. i was lost at tt time.. couldn't think of anything to do.. i ran away from problems.. i avoid calls.. avoid everything.. it helps.. but only for awhile.. still have to face it in e end.. HARSHED.. went to confront my mum.. though end up she was e one talking all e way, i'm e one standin there listening.. i got to noe wad they are thinking.. just hope things will get better at home.. trying to do wad they wan if possible to get back peace at home...

i'm in mixed feelings nowadays.. ups and downs.. just hope all quarrels will stopped.. if i could do anything to change all the situations, i'm willing to give a try....

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